I'm In Hawaii And Just Got The Scariest Alert Of My Life. Here's What I Did Next.
HONOLULU — On Saturday morning, I was basking in my usual routine, waking up with my yawning dog, walking upstairs to get a macchiato made by my husband.
The caffeine began to hit me. I was reclining on the sofa, listening to the birds chirping external the windows of our secluded jungle domestic and reading the news on my phone — when, suddenly, it started vibrating and I saw this totality-caps message:
My heart started racing. Was this real?
I re-read it.
“THIS IS NOT A DRILL.”
I jumped off the sofa and ran downstairs to find my husband. He was in the bathroom. I screamed at him through the wall: “Did you earn the message?!”
“Give me one minute,” he responded, much too calmly. He clearly had not received the message.
perhaps, possibly it wasn’t real? I just wanted him to reach out and say as much. He needed another minute. A missile was going to hit us and my husband would be on the toilet. considerable.
I ran back upstairs and screamed to my mom, whom we also live with. “Did you earn the message?”
“What message?” she yelled back.
“inspect at your phone!”
She had received the message.
“Is this real?” we asked each other.
“Call Eric!” I said, referring to my brother, who lives in the Kapahulu neighborhood in Honolulu. (I absorb another brother, but he is traveling on the mainland. I felt slight relief at this thought.)
I didn’t know what to achieve, so I took a screenshot of the message and decided to tweet it out.
I tried to reflect of what to write with my tweet. “OMG” I typed, but then immediately tried to reflect of something better to write. What whether I die and my final tweet is just “OMG”? I really couldn’t reflect of anything better to say. It was totality I could feel. I hit send.
My husband came rushing upstairs. He had now received the message, but for some reason his phone was a few minutes behind ours.
“We’re supposed to shelter in spot,” I said. “So let’s stay here and close totality the windows.”
We live in my childhood domestic, which suddenly didn’t really feel safe. As a reporter, I absorb been covering the state warning system amid the recent rising tensions with North Korea, and I knew it was best to shelter in a concrete building. Our domestic is 99-years extinct and made out of wood.
Still, we live at the top of Mount Tantalus, which is above Honolulu, so it felt remote and seemed like we had a better chance of being faraway from any likely target zone — Pearl Harbor perhaps? Another military base?
As I looked through a astronomical window in the living room, I could see most of Honolulu below. On the edge of the city is the lush Diamond Head, an extinct volcanic crater. Beneath that lies rows and rows of homes that seem to melt together. The suburban boxes feel like they would just descend into the sea, whether not for the skyscrapers that dot Waikiki and downtown Honolulu and form a wall that stops the houses from flowing straight into the ocean.
It was the view I had looked at my whole life. But for a split moment, I saw it totality gone — just gray dust and rubble, like a photo I might absorb seen of a bombed-out city in World War II.
I saw the people I loved gone, as well as the city that had given me everything, opening its arms to me when I born at Kapiolani Hospital and shaping me into the person I am now.
I shook the image absent and instead took a mental screenshot of what was still there.
“It was the view I had looked at my whole life. But for a split moment, I saw it totality gone — just gray dust and rubble.”
Then I closed the shutters in the kitchen, and in a bathroom, where one of the extinct window coverings felt stuck. I couldn’t really earn it to shut and nearly gave up, but I also felt strangely terrified. I didn’t want this to be where the nuclear fallout seeped into our domestic. I pushed harder, until it shut totality the way. I closed the door, too, as I left the room.
I scurried downstairs and into my brother Jesse’s childhood bedroom. He is on the mainland and I couldn’t back myself from envisioning what it would be like for him to absorb his instant family die while he was absent. I didn’t envy him, but I did feel an immense wave of sadness wash over me.
This was also the room that my dad had turned into his office after my brother went absent to college. When my dad died suddenly from a heart attack, no one in my family had known what to achieve with it. He had left totality his paperwork in piles and it was tough to know what each pile meant.
On Thanksgiving Day in 2011, I had gone hiking with my dad and less than a week later he died in a hotel room while traveling for work. Even after totality this time, it is still tough for me to understand how anyone can be there one day and gone the next.
Was this happening to totality of us now?
I walked into another bathroom at the cease of the corridor and remembered one of the shutters in the shower had fallen off — the nuclear fallout would find its way in no matter what. The motion of closing the shutters felt a runt ridiculous besides. I closed the door to the bathroom and headed back upstairs.
I saw my husband at the sink, holding a five-gallon jug that he was filling with water.
Emergency Management Agency (EMA) officials had warned people to gather supplies to final for up to two weeks in case people needed to “shelter in spot” to avoid nuclear fallout. “Shelter in spot” is the unique “duck and cover”— it’s the mantra EMA officials absorb been telling Hawaii residents in press conferences and television commercials in preparation for cases like this.
Of course, we hadn’t really prepared any emergency supplies. We had lots of food in the house, and we live in a remote area, so we achieve absorb a generator. But I wondered why we didn’t absorb any more empty water jugs to fill. I felt my heartbeat accelerating.
We walked back upstairs and I asked my husband whether he thought we were going to die. The question hung in the thick air, with no trade winds to blow it absent.
“I asked my husband whether he thought we were going to die. The question hung in the thick air with no trade winds to blow it absent.”
My husband, mom, and I gathered in front of the television in the kitchen. Eric had been informed of the alert, my mom said, and was sheltering in spot in Kapahulu.
My mom flipped through channels until we found one with the alert blaring across the screen. I wanted to know more, but seeing the alert on television only made it feel more real.
I received a text message from a friend visiting from California asking, “Is this alert real?”
I wasn’t certain how to reply. “Seems like it,” I said.
Suddenly, I realized only two of the three ways the state was going to alert us to an attack had gone off. “Had anyone heard sirens?” I asked. We don’t live near the city, but the wind was still and I had been able to hear the sirens faintly when they were tested on the first Friday of the month.
I asked my California friend, who is staying in Honolulu, but he said he hadn’t heard sirens either. (Some people later said they did hear them).
“Will they stop it?” he asked approximately the missile. “achieve we close windows?”
I didn’t absorb an retort to the first question, but I told him to shut windows and to travel inside a concrete building whether possible.
I started reaching out to people, trying to find out more. My mom was on the phone speaking to loved ones.
Then I saw a tweet had been sent out from Rep. Tulsi Gabbard, confirming it was a mistaken alarm.
Relief washed over totality three of us and my mom screamed.
We were going to be ok. Of course, how could we not be? I thought.
But relief quickly turned to disappointment and infuriate at this major, terrifying mistake. How could this happen?
I started to see more messages on Twitter confirming the news, but it still took roughly 20 minutes before I received an alert on my phone officially stating it was a mistaken alarm.
Only then did I feel my shoulders drop. I knew at final that it was going to be ok.
I looked up from my phone and back out the astronomical window in the living room, where I could see my city — still there, just like it had always been.
Michelle Broder Van Dyke is a reporter and night editor for BuzzFeed News and is based in Hawaii.
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